In between beefing with the “big bad bully of the rap game,” Eminem, Machine Gun Kelly confronts his own demons in the video for “Lately” off his BINGE EP.

The “Rap Devil” reveals a dark past in the trippy clip, which he shot himself on a plane and in his hotel room. He reflects on painful times from his childhood including being abandoned by his mother when he was nine years old (“What you think that type of shit do to your soul?”) and someone trying to take his life.

“Lately I’ve been having crazy thoughts / The way I’m living, shit get crazy dark,” he raps on the somber song.

“Lately” is one of nine tracks off MGK’s BINGE EP. He is currently opening for Fall Out Boy on the group’s “Mania Tour,” which runs through Oct. 10 in New Orleans.